Hey you,
it's me,
your reflection,
RIMIDI
Ah… and we're back, like we've never left.
If you know me, like… really know me… then you would know that I dislike that word “never” and a few many thousands of words in the English vocabulary.
I digress.
Happy Full Moon in Capricorn.
I told y'all that I've been wanting to change this newsletter from "Full Moon Newsletter" to something else since I do not always send it on the Full Moon as intended. So, here we are with a new name: Sacred Wellness Check In. This name change was right on time and inspired by my very good friend and sister, Marc, who would always do check ins with me and her loved ones with a simple text. She still does this from time to time; however, I feel that the tables have turned and it is my time now to check in on her. This name change was affirmed for me and inspired by Jess Frey, an extraordinary healer who I met last year at Kripalu.
So, let me let you in for a second…
I have been feeling very inspired, scared, afraid, nervous, powerful, bold, anxious, angry, frustrated, impatient, contemplative, grounded, brave, excited, etc. etc. etc. all in one sentence, sometimes, all at one time. What about you? I definitely feel like I am on the cusp of becoming a brand new person. I am definitely not the person that I was a year ago or even a day ago. Each day, my life becomes more of an adventure, more real, more true. It is hard to explain. I feel more present, more here, more alive, more purposeful and purposely driven. Intentional. With good days and bad days. Some days I am on my A-game and sometimes my A-game looks more like an F-game but I will give it a D for effort. It's all good. At some point you'll get sick and tired of being sick and tired. Hence, where I am.
Even with that, sometimes I have days that look like, inwardly in a slightly annoyed stance while pretending to snap back into being grounded, "girl, didn't you just say that you were “sick and tired”?
“Well, ummm, yea…”, I say to myself with a laid back swag and confidence as I remind myself to trust the process and to speak to myself with grace and kindness.
In frustration, “Then, why are you still here fumbling at the fingers, scrolling?”. Me to me.
It be like that sometimes. It really does be like that.
Am I the only one?
Lol. Maybe.
Indulge with me a little more…
Then, there is the pressure. The pressure of the world that tells you that you are not enough. That you have not hit the status quo in reasonable, acceptable time. That you are running out of time. That you've failed. That something is wrong with you. That you… that you… that you… you. You. are. not. enough. Until, you have that ah ha! moment that you are enough and that what is actually wrong with you is that you have followed the path of others whose path are not the same as your own. You have tried fitting yourself into a box when boxes honestly must be custom made for you. Yes, did you know that? There is a such thing as custom boxes. Not everything can fit in a box. Duh. You, you there? Did you know that you are a custom print? A custom design? Any box made for you must be customized and made with many new editions as you are always constantly growing, purging, changing, transforming, blah, blah, blah… all of the synonyms and related words. It is true. You were made differently because your purpose is different and what may very well work for others absolutely fucking do not work for you! Come to grips with this shit! Stop the fuck shit! Stop it, I say! Just stop!
This is me really talking to me but maybe you can dig it. Maybe this will hit. Or, maybe this is you to you.
Maybe, what if maybe, it is the world that something is wrong with?
Maybe, what if just maybe, nothing is wrong with anyone and this is just apart of this sick design that we call life?
Maybe this is not a sick design. Maybe, what if just maybe, this is a beautiful design and so many of us are just doing it wrong?
Maybe, what if just fucking maybe, we were made to be different and to embrace the differences of others?
Maybe that's just it. Maybe that is the final piece to the puzzle.
I want to say this, though.
It seems at though those of us who think differently but with very good intention must always quiet themselves to fit in or out of fear of harsh backlash but the ones who fit the common left wing thought of this world and society gets to speak while all of the crazy narcissistic psycho paths all get to run the world!
Well, I am going to speak for everyone like me…
All of those noises on the outside, it is okay to block them out.
The world, the schools, the jobs, the family, the friends, the… the… the!
Block it THE. FUCK. OUT!
In this season we are listening to ourselves. In this season we are trusting ourselves. We are trusting what we hear and what we KNOW. We are trusting our intuitive design and connection to God, the higher power. We are walking in our customized plan bravely, fearlessly, intentionally and with purpose. Yes! I am saying it for you.
Be bigger than fucking life!
Why? Because you can! No matter WHAT your current circumstance or external environment may look like, sound like, appear to be and/or may be telling you. And, ion mean that in a narcissistic, grandiose kind of way. I mean that in a show up in the fullness of your existence, unapologetically, with compassion and with kindness. Stop dimming your light! Also, people are going to try and write your life's script for you, tell you what you are thinking, what you are doing, who you are, who you should be, etc. etc. etc.
Take control of the script. That sometimes mean saying nothing at all and allowing them to think what they want.
I wasn't going to curse. I know that some of you do not like that. Hell, sometimes, often times, I do not like that. But hey, sometimes, it has it's place.
So, with this Full Moon in Capricorn, rise THE FUCK above!
I dare you.
It will push you into showing up for yourself the way that you show up for that job. For that family member. For that friend. For that homeless man on the corner. On time. Let me ask you, what if you were to show up for yourself like that, on time, consistently, every day? How different would your life be? What could and would you accomplish? How would your life change to mirror back to you what you wish to see in your outer world? Who would and do you have to become?
Know your worth instead of giving it all away. Okay?
No more.
And, and do say NO. I know, this is a word that is going to require some practice since you've been so accustom to saying YES! Even though when you ask them… the answer is no.
Let's say it together, shall we?
NO.
No!
No (in spanish).
NO!
I told the members of FIND YOUR RIMIDI Whatsapp group that if they turn back to what no longer serves them, like Lot's wife in Genesis, Chapter 19, they'll be turned into a pillar of salt. I've gotten this message in confirmation and now in affirmation time after time again. There's no looking back.
I'm going to leave that with you to sit with. You let that resonate however and wherever it hits. If you want to dive deeper with me in topics such as these, well, you've got to join me in the spaces that I curate just for you.
I hope to see you in one of them soon. And to those of you already there or who have been, thank you. I'll see you again soon, too.
God bless.
Be easy,
RIMIDI