Hey you,  
it's me,  
your reflection,  
RIMIDI  

 

 

So, here's what have I been sensing:   

 

... MORE LIKE FEELING.

 

I moved through the craziest of all emotions with this past eclipse. I wonder if you would even believe the words coming out of my mouth (well, thoughts) and onto this paper? I really do wonder. Do you understand the words that Is peak? More like, comprehend. Do you? Anyways, I digress. I moved through some fierce emotions that took me out of my comfort zone. I t was so uncomfortable what I felt as I faced myself and saw the things that made me uncomfortable face to face, There was nowhere to run. I had to face myself and what was causing me to feel so much pain.

I cried for 8 days straight leading to the eclipse that took place on December 4th. It was so painful. I didn't know who to call on so I called on my Mama, my cousin Michelle, my brother James and my art Director, Ashley. Passion was around but I didn't tell her much. It was so heavy. I later told Fab - to embarrassed to share. 

For the first two days, I cried alone at home with my daughters as my witnesses. I needed them to know that whatever the fuck I was going through, that I would get through it and that it was ok to cry. even if neither of us could make sense out of what was happening. 

I wanted to call God but it felt like my spirit was telling me to call on me so I called my mama... the next best thing. 

I shed the old me. Old beliefs. Old lovers. Old pain. Old personas. 

I think what I was facing/feeling was an ascension because meanwhile I was battling flu like symptoms. 

I think it is safe to say that I am healed and renewed. Every pain that was left unsettled for years have now been set free. 

The little girl in me Is healed and ready to play. 

I need no validation. And, I feel real good in my skin. 

I forgive the past and a very hell fuck yea to the present moment. 

I know now that I can detach from the outcome because we are all one and that I am divinely guided all the way home until this is done. Whatever I need I shall have, right when I need it. I know that through each of you, my needs shall be met and I, yours. I can standby in this knowing. 

So, now, I am taking a chill pill and trust the process. 

Now I can finally relax.

 

Hey,

before I let you go...

 

I warn you that you must be careful what you ask for because it does come true.

I want to warn you to be careful of the things that you say.

I want to warn you to be careful to choose and speak your words carefully - with great care.

I do believe that we could exist with ease and learn our lessons through grace

I do believe that the stories of others could be just that,

their own.

 

 

Chanting:  

All is well  

I create my dream life,  

specifically  

and with intention.  

All of my needs   

are provided for,  

thus, there is no need to worry.  

I release my need to control  

and so I flow like water.  

I accept all phases of the process,  

allowing myself  

to move through each phase  

gracefully.  

 

Til next time...  

 

 

Be easy,  

 

RIMIDI